Jessie B.

High school senior year 2009/2010 and then college 3.5 hours away in WVU opened up the worst darkness imaginable. I had all these thoughts swirling in my mind that I'm not good enough. I'll never amount to anything, be anything, do anything important, et. cetera. Cutting was a release in college. It was only a though senior year of high school. My best friend in college, turned into the sister I needed and her guidance and the therapy through free sessions my first year, assisted me in stopping the habit. I kept the habit hidden from my roommate because we never grew close. She had her schedule and friends and I had mine. Each year I still went to therapy, but spaced them out monthly so I wouldn't use them up so early in the year. My time at WVU was also assisted by the presence of feathers in my path. Fallen feathers from wings of birds or sometimes, I believed angels who felt it necessary to leave a piece of themselves for me to find to let me know they are here for me. I am doing better now, I have graduated from WVU 2010-2014 and also from Towson University 2015-2018, two different bachelor's degrees and have a great job with a huge healthcare not-for-profit that is across MD-DC-VA. My demons are finally behind me and think less of what people want from me and more of what I want from me.