Tom W.
15 years ago I was a heavy painkiller and opioid user because of all the Bike accidents I have had. the left leg,4 titanium plates in my neck, left shoulder and left arm are titanium and each from different events. at almost 50 years old I wasnt depressed I had just had enough and kept hearing a voice in my head that was saying " If life is nothing but pain and suffering why wait? " I was sleeping with my 9mm on the night stand for the night I would just get tired of going to the freezer to take a few hits off the bottle of Jack I always kept to get a couple more hours sleep. This went on for a while and one night while blasting home on my Bike I heard the voice again... " If life is nothing but pain and suffering Why Wait???" It was screaming at me now! I was raised Irish Catholic and its a sin to off yourself so I was looking at 18 wheelers at me in the other direction and decided if i just close my eyes and hit them head on it would be over quick and it would just go down as another unfortunate accident. While my eyes were closed I heard a booming voice!!! It said GET CLEAN AND SOBER AND IF YOU STILL WANT TO DO THIS SO BE IT! I yelled What??? I heard the same thing again! I road home grabbed my Bible looked up and said if you are real show me what to read?? The Bible opened to the story of Saul on the road to Damascus. He was blown off his horse and heard the voice twice. He later Became the apostle Paul. Now trust me I'm no Bible thumper but I heard that voice! I still was drinking and druging after that until one night my son called me to ask for help because he had just OD'd for the 3rd time. I made a bet with him that night it was Good Friday that I would never drink or drug again. I went into sezures on Easter Sunday and I really belived I would die! But I was ready I couldn't live like that anymore. I figuered if that voice I heard was real he would either end the suffering or see me through it. I woke up the next day feeling like I got hit by a truck but I was still alive. I honestly cant say how long it took for the brain zaps to stop because I had been snorting anti- depressants as well. I had no idea what I was doing other than not drinking or using and jsu dealing with the pain of it all the best I could. At one point I was watching some nature program and thought how does a wolf deal with the pain of stepping in a trap and losing a limb? Where are the pharmacies for animals in the wild to get pain killers? How much of the pain I feel is real and how much do I manifest in my own mind? So long story short I survived it all and there is much more then what I have typed here. Now I'm an active member of AA and NA and I will be the key Note speaker at the AL-Anon AA convention In Massachusetts on March 22nd This just really scrathes the surface of my story... One night on Facebook I seen your site and it hit me like a truck!!! Demons Behind Me And So Is my Past!!! I seen the story of the tattoo on the back of someones leg and you guys talking about it and the meaning and I told others about your Company and my friend starting ordering me stuff online and she was the one who sent me this to tell you my story. A lot of very difficult things have happened to me in sobriety but I get through knowing that tomorrow could always be better if I just hang on another day! So here I am still alive and trying to give back to others what was so freely given to me! You guys have something I think is great just by the name and if you dont do meetings maybe hit some and from what you hear could give you new design ideas. I have actually designed a piece for my back I wanted to get done. As you well Know many of us where our pasts in ink on our bodies.
Thats all for now. I love your products and look forward to seeing some cool new designs so we all can keep the Demons Behind Us.
