I was diagnosed with Bipolar II disorder in 2020 and then experienced a period with several traumatic events in 2020. As such, I have developed a psychosomatic pain disorder that Americas top doctors aren’t able to diagnose. As such, in 2021 I was blaming God for these otherworldly sensations and suffer to this day. i attempted suicide in 2022 to end the pain but luckily failed. Now I have come to radical acceptance and use my struggles to help others with mental health issues and am trusting God to heal me.