I'm 55 now but when I was 12 my 17 yr old sister committed suicide...it was a f'd up deal & a very long & difficult story....ive carried this my whole life...no councilor or pastor or any therapy can take it away...i consider myself successful in life as far as where I'm at now...in 2019 my 58 yr old brother died of stomach cancer so now I'm the last of 3 siblings & it really sucks but life goes on....Us 3 siblings had to deal with a VERY angry abusive & alcoholic father that had a golden rule....its MY WAY OR THE HIGHWAY YOU DONT LIKE IT HERE PACK YOUR SHIT & DONT LET THE DOOR HIT YA IN THE ASS!!! These were his exact words....I was like "fuck dad I'm only 13...but look at me now....this anger & abusivness drove my brother & sister to the grave...thats another story....I also went through a divorce about 8 years ago after a 22 yr marriage so there's another demon behind me...so in a nutshell there's more but I think you get the picture....I have a killer job nice pad & just waiting for God to bring a good woman to me....thank you for your time & for reading this....Randy