I am a recovering addict, alcoholic .My clean date is 10/6/2008 I used drugs and alcohol since I was 12 I used not to feel . Basically self medicating.For years the only feelings I had were anger and rage ,I also fight depression and anxiety. I have a sleeping monkey Tattoo on my shoulder with the word Faith it is behind me because I can’t see it but I know it’s there because you can’t see Faith but have to believe in it . The sleeping monkey represents the monkey on my back is sleeping because addiction is having a monkey on your back ..