John J.

To me, Demons Behind Me represents the struggles I've lived through on a daily basis for the past 25 years or so. This includes my accidents and exposures in the military that led to my mental and physical states, the chronic nightmares I fight with due to them, the medications I've had to take to suppress my symptoms, my suicidal thoughts and ideations, how it's all affected my family, and how it all STILL DOES affect me and those closest to me, not to mention my physical infirmities and how I must deal with them. I take each day at a time and every day I have to tell myself that ,"My demons are behind me, and so is my past." It has become somewhat of a mantra for me. I still hurt, ache, have lucid dreams and nightmares, take 30+ pills per day, and have difficulties in everyday life, but that mantra makes it just a little bit easier to make it through most days. I especially love the semicolon shirts. My story is not over!!! I can't work, due to my disabilities, and I need to get a service animal, to help me deal with the public. I regret to admit that I have attempted suicide, but I don't want to be another statistic. Thank you for taking the time to listen. I applied for a sponsorship for my band a while back, but never received a response. I hope that this will at least get someone's attention and, at a bare minimum, be able to help someone in their struggle. None of us are alone, unless we CHOOSE to be!